SUPERMAN

2010-01-21T21:50:00.000-08:00

Seems like my life is on a stand-still.. everything seems similar, unchanged... Everyday same stuffs, same routine

2010-01-13T04:12:00.000-08:00

This kinda NANA life have taken a toll on me.. Gained 6 kgs, 4 pacs turn to 1, lesser sleeping time, but on the other hand, i've gained more friends from different walks of life..
In life, we gain some, we lose some.. What's impt is we are enjoying =)
Life's too short to live in misery... Make full use of it and enjoy it while we still can

2010-01-03T22:13:00.000-08:00

Got studs first straight into my left ankle... now swollen like f**k... Guess no soccer for me for the time being =)

2009-12-21T05:24:00.000-08:00

I know those pix comes kinda late but still, it's here....

Enjoy~

2009-12-17T01:51:00.000-08:00

CNY trip to Korea have been cancelled but might be going Thailand with my family...
Guess it's gonna be shopping, shopping and shopping... No clubbing at night i suppose.. Sianz.. Unless, anyone kind-hearted soul wanna follow me go???
Do let me know ya?!
Text me, email me, call me.. watever means to contact me..

2009-12-08T01:23:00.000-08:00

DRUNK FEST THIS THURSDAY @ NANA

DRINK TILL U DROP
-Free Flow of Housepour and Beer
-Probably Quite a Number of Martells
how not to get frenz drunk?? (Thats my forte) lol..
Cant wait Cant wait!!!!
Beware ALEX and co.
Muahahaha!!!

2009-12-01T07:46:00.000-08:00

Feeling much better..
Thinking about it, why not channel all those sorrow and pain to other meaningful things.. Like, getting alex drop-dead drunk in nana, or it can be Melvin or even Omi.. hahaha.. This is getting more and more interesting!!!
I've always been encouraging frenz to look on the brighter side of life and rightfully, i shld too!!
I've been kinda hard on myself these few days and i suppose it's time to stand back straight up..
Derrick is strong and will not crumble through adversity =)
Well, at least i know she's well and good.. that's encouraging enough ya?!
NANA will never be the same w/o you (well, for me at least)

Thunder strom have passed and rainbow is starting to form!!!
Derrick is back to is cheerful, adorable self!!!
hahahaha!!!!!!!!

2009-12-01T00:20:00.000-08:00

It's been 6 days since your departure.. nth have changed.. u are still being missed!!

2009-11-26T22:21:00.000-08:00

It have been 2 mths since i last touch this bloggin' shit!!
If u guys are wondering, what makes me come back to blog?!, blame it on the chains of misfortune.
Bottling up all these are killing me, what best to shout it out loud here, where no one will give a fuck!!
Just ytd, i was wondering, what am i suppose to do?! i'm slowly but surely falling for her. It's not always a good thing. The higher my expectation, the harder i will fall back down to earth.
I kept asking myself, had i given a choice to like u once again, will i?!
NO if u are working in the same line!!
Hell YES if u are just a typical girl-next-door!!
(you are too good a catch to miss out on)
But had u not work here, i probably dont even know who you are..
Perhaps its fate that got me to know u, and now cruelly taking u away.
Had i not known u, i wouldnt have known the amount of jealousy, backstabbing going on.
Knowing u are leaving today is like dropping a bomb shell right on me. I'm so totally unprepared for this. Well, luckily for me, i did went down ytd. If not, i dont even have the chance to bid goodbye. You made a choice and i'm full supportive of ur desicion.
You are the 2nd best thing that ever came across my life. Wondering whats the 1st?!
IT'S UNDISCLOSED =X
God knows when will i be able to see u again.
life still goes on whether i like it or not.
Perhaps it's another brand new set of life for me to walk.
Till then, my once fancied, good old pal!!
Definately gonna miss ur "cheebye bin, lan jiao, bo lam pa" hahaha!!

2009-09-07T22:21:00.000-07:00

DOWN WITH A FLU AND A REAL BAD COUGH!!!!

H1N1???

LOL...

16 DAYS TO THAILAND!!!!

2009-08-24T23:37:00.001-07:00

My dad seems rather generous this month... Spending $$ like they just drop from the sky
(When can i be able to have such spending power?!)

Let's make a checklist on what he spent on:
i) Bought a LV bag for my mum on her b'day $2400+
(in the end, my mum decided to go back and change to a $1500+ LV bag and the remaining balance goes to my sis LV wallet $470+ and my LV card holder $370)
(benefitted from my mum's disliking of the design of the LV bag my dad bought for her) LOL

ii) Bought an Osim massage chair worth $3400+ and an Osim " U PAPA HUG" for my granny worth $300+

iii) Gave my bro $1200 for the Korea trip

iv) Undisclosed $4000+

Total add up to a sum of $10 000+
OMG!!!!!
Rain me with $$ pls!!!!!!!

2009-08-24T23:06:00.000-07:00

I'M BACK

Lemme see what can i blog about?!

hmm... let's start from Jason's b'day...

Thanks to the freaking newpaper article about thai disco, Jason's b'day party turned out to be anything but fun... everywhere thai disco we went, seems so "dead"!!!

(slap mouth, now its chinese 7 mth, cannot anyhow talk)

But no matter how boring it was, no escaping for the b'day boy to get drunk!!

So fun see-ing ppl get drunk.. My turn's coming real soon.. (die die)

(oops, there i goes again (slap mouth))

Thankfully i'm probably celebrating my b'day in thailand.. There, no one give a shit about me getting drunk and haha, no familiar faces around!!

ARGH!!!!

Bro's going KOREA and i'm only stuck with THAILAND!!

See the Significant difference... @#$%&

(A pre-enlistment present from my dad?!) LOL

2009-05-21T05:14:00.000-07:00

Come to think about it, i've yet to post the pic taken on meh meh's 24th b'day!!

Here it is, enjoy!!!

2009-05-21T04:56:00.000-07:00

"Meh Meh"

My very 1st LV item

Welcome my newest addition to my Be@rbrick family =)

2009-05-02T01:25:00.000-07:00

Was reading yahoo news and found this interesting article

"A 22-year-old girl from Hong Kong claimed to have dated Taiwanese singer Show Lo for nearly two months and has even provided online chat records and photos to a magazine, which reported the claim.

The girl, who is known as Fanny, was reported to have posted webcam images of Lo on her blog, and had accused Lo of "betrayal". Responding to the scandalous accusation, Lo admitted to have exchanged conversations with Fanny online, amidst suspicion that he might have fallen into a trap.

Fanny, who was said to look like Taiwanese singer Selina, sent 16 pages of online conversation content and some text messages, that Lo had sent to her, to a Hong Kong magazine. In addition, Fanny exposed the details of their online affair through web conversations, phone calls and text messages for the past two months.

Fanny revealed that she got to know Lo through Facebook, where Lo added her as a friend after looking at her display picture. After a few exchanges on the social network website, they exchanged MSN addresses. The young girl said that Lo appeared to be quite liberal on their very first conversation; he even mentioned that he was "very good at it". When being asked what he was good at, Lo replied in subtlety that "he could bring her to meet Jesus".

Although without any evidence, Fanny claimed that she has been to Lo's house. The text messages that were exposed contained sweet nothings such as "I missed you today! I'm back!" and "I will have to bite you till you scream for help!"
Thinking that Lo was serious about their relationship, Fanny later discovered that Lo had other girls on his network, and that she was only one of the flings he had. She started to feel foolish to have been finding excuses for Lo for the lack of attention for her, and believed him when he said he was too busy with work.

On the other hand, Lo was shocked to hear about the accusation and expressed that this may have been a trap. Lo told the media that the girl had spent almost a month gaining his trust, and asked Lo to switch on his webcam for identity verification. The girl had used seductive words to lure him into switching on his web cam, little did he expect the web shot to be saved and published. Lo's record company reproached Fanny for being low handed, trying just to gain fame through this incident."

Playboy/Butterfly?!
you decide!!
lol

2009-04-30T21:30:00.000-07:00

2009-04-26T18:51:00.001-07:00

What do you do when you are bored at home?!

Drawing!!

(cant help but think that derrick is getting more and more artistic) lol

2009-04-25T21:29:00.000-07:00

BOTAK JONES TASTE GOOD!!!

2009-04-23T22:48:00.001-07:00

Oh no... Derrick is getting emotional again
Reason: I myself have no idea why

Sometime choices have to be made... But when it come to choosing, it can be a pain in the ass... Caught in a dilema once again...

Ytd was so funny, in the 2nd day running, this "crazy" girl comes to me again... a slight nudge, she will act as if someone push her with all his might...
Here comes the funny part... She was sitting down beside me, a slight contact (not even considered a push) she fell ass 1st onto the floor... I was laughing like crazy la.. I bet she felt super embarassing with so many guys around looking at her!!
Once again i gotta highlight, IT AINT MY FAULT THAT SHE FELL... LOL

Gotta find a job real soon, a FT one that is.. Enough of the life i'm living in right now...

Primary objective for the following month:
-Cut down on drinking
-More exercises (IPPT coming again)

2009-04-16T23:57:00.000-07:00

Me?? A "butterfly"?? (fyi buttefly = playboy)

Bro: Actually being labelled a "playboy" aint that bad afterall, at least this shows u have the chrisma and looks...

Neither do i have the chrisma nor the looks, so how can i fit the bill?!

NEVER WAS AND NEVER WILL BE

2009-04-05T19:44:00.000-07:00

Did you watch it? Did you?
I DID!!
See how man utd fought back from a goal down to win it in just 10 min
Despite 2 goals from the ususal suspect C.Ronaldo, the limelight still goes to the 17 years old "Federico Macheda" aka "Kiko" (C.R, you have ur share of the limelight, now give others a chance)

From a nobody, to an instant hero..
Not sure how long my "Macheda" fever is gonna last? 1 week? 1 mth? Who knows, maybe forever!! HAHA

2009-04-03T05:08:00.000-07:00

"if you had, one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted - one moment
Would you capture it? Or just let it slip?" - eminem,lose yourself

Setting up a Walux boutique here in singapore seems like a good prospect but how to get it's franchiseship?!
Better go do some research 1st?!
"My dream still live on"

"IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING"

2009-04-01T00:36:00.000-07:00

If everything goes according to plan, i will be in Thailand on 14th of May... Cant wait for the day to come... But 1st thing 1st, gotta get my passport sorted out 1st..
Wasted my fucking $10 taking cab back and forth to Singpost just to find out they only do renewal of passport and not extention!! Damn

What if it's true that she will be back, wouldnt my thailand trip be in vein?!
Nah, still can meet up with some of my frens there, and not forgetting SHOPPPING!!
SHOPPING SPREE!!! Woohoo~~~

Ytd at 99 was so fun, nearly (nearly means about to but havent yet.. LOL) got KO'
Stomach was so bloated with alcohol, abit more and i'm sure all will come straight out from my mouth (icluding my lunch and dinner.. HAHAHA)

Made a wife there... HAHA...
Since i'm Mel's PAPA and she's Mel's MAMA, does that make us husband and wife?! LOL
Just cant let anyone around me go back without getting drunk, so keep poppin' drinks to anyone who come over... Just like the same ol' saying "One for all, All for one"
Oh ya!! Today is Rabbit last day... Sianz... All are slowly but surely going back... one by one... Tiger is starting work today so only can get to see him probably like once per week!

One last thing but i complete my my daily blog!!!
This is not some new news!!!!
My fav player Pavel Nedved is retiring after the end of the season!! So damn sad la!!
Just retired from international football last year and now, retiring for good!!
No..............
(It did come across my mind to get a wallpaper of him on my wall but i guess it will be kinda costly!!!)

2009-03-25T21:56:00.000-07:00

Check out some of these NBA players with bad ass tattoo!!

2009-03-21T20:28:00.000-07:00

99 is getting more and more boring!!!
Earlier this week, banglah went back to philipines and today Raki went back Thailand!
No more ppl to 5-10, 1-6... HAiz...
So sad!!!
Does that mean no more re-visiting of 99 in the near future??
(Still have 1/3 bottle of Chivas there though) LOL

May to Thailand?
No clue No nothing, how to find her?!
But i have a gutsy feeling "HE" have a way
HAHA

2009-03-19T23:32:00.000-07:00

I'm so in love with this song!!

Plain White T's - 1 2 3 4

1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

Give me more lovin' than I've ever had
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

Give me more lovin' from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

1, 2, 3, 4
I love you
I love you

2009-02-26T22:54:00.000-08:00

Let's welcome 2 new members to my Be@rbrick collections!!

2009-02-26T22:48:00.000-08:00

Havent been bloggin for quite a while...
WEll, let me sum up what i've been doing for th past few weeks
TWO WORDS
"ABSOLUTELY NOTHING"

Check out the feast we are diggin into!!! YUMMY!!!

2009-02-04T01:41:00.000-08:00

Check it OUT!!!
My bro and sis are so engrossed with Wii
Not forgetting me too...!!
So fun!!!!
Next on the list, a PS3!!!!

2009-01-25T19:31:00.000-08:00

Finally did some last min shopping and bought my new year shoes (thanks to my dad)

Last but not least, Wishing Everyone a Happy Chinese "Niu" Year!!!
After 12 long years, it's finally back to my Year!!! LOL!!! HUAT AR!!!

2009-01-19T02:21:00.000-08:00

Ytd at 99 was so Happening!!!
No to mention a lil "tu lan" as well
Finally saw the hapless face of my lil bro... "Abit more and i will be drunk"
HAHAHA
Told you that bitch was good.. So good that i got beaten hands down on the 1st day, but pull some pride back on the 2nd... LOL
Cant wait to go back to challenge her the next time!!!

And pls, stop sticking to me like a housefly.. I'm there to have fun and enjoy myself!!

2009-01-11T20:26:00.000-08:00

It's the 12th day since the New Year and only until now, then i'm trying to think of my New Year resolution... A little slow huh?! Guess not, just like the same ol' saying "It's never too late to......."
Let me see, what fits the bill to be in my New Year Resolution
i)To be a better person?!
ii)More Bearbricks to my collections
iii)Money keeps rolling in $$$$$
iv)Learning the art of mixing (DJ-ing)
v)Exploit something different
vi)Have more BBQ gatherings & Parties!!!

That the few stuffs i had currently in my mind, more to follow
stay tune.......

Dreamt of Shu hui look-alike ytd!!!
Sign of chances i can see her again?!
Finger Croxx!!

Part 2: Finally got my hair dyed!!
Next in line, getting my eye brown pierced
Cant wait!!

2009-01-09T06:06:00.000-08:00

Walked past Action City ytd and these 4 1000% beatles figurines (mind you, they are HUGH) caught my attention!!
I was like "NICE!!!", so decided to ask the staff how much it cost
Make a guess?!

WRONG!!! HAHA

It cost a freaking $3400+
OMG!!!

He also told me they ordered in 2 sets, one taken by a buyer, so paying 3000+ for a display set.... Not worth it!!

CNY is coming and i still haven't bought my New Year's clothings!!! Yet another last min shopping!!

2009-01-05T09:25:00.000-08:00

just some photos taken in malacca which didnt upload ytd...

2009-01-04T11:05:00.000-08:00

Went Malacca yesterday along with my couz and family... Thought it will be a shopping spree but ended up in a big dissapointment!!!
Malacca is so de boring la!!
Only managed to get a tee..
Nothing much to buy, the malls there are so empty!!
Saw bearbricks(faked) and Bounty Hunter's tee(faked) so decided not to get any!!!
(Support the origianls) LOL!!
Went to have my hair cut last friday.. Alan wasnt around (went to fetch his son from shcool) and his wife was busy with another customer so decide to let the newbie to cut for me...
While cutting my hair, she ask if anyone say i look like the guy in 超級星光大道 (one million star)
I was like who?! Praying it wont be 杨宗纬 (Aska) that she was referring to..
Thank god it wasnt him!! LOL..!!
She said i look abit like 萧敬腾 (Jam).. Well, i take it as a compliment!! Thks! Haha..
Outcome of my haircut wasnt that bad initially until i went home to find out my right "tail" was longer then the left's... (But it's even now, asked dad to trim it for me)

Went out to had dinner at Xing Wang again!!! Xiao ke ai was there again!! Woohoo!!
But still searching for the shu hui look-alike la!!
People say persistence pays off!
Well, hopefully!! (Keeping my fingers cross)

2009-01-01T22:10:00.000-08:00

Finally, my hectic but fun 6 days are OVER!!!
Working from 10 to 10 definately took a toll out of me!!
But likewise, my 6 days of seeing Shu hui look-alike, Juliet and Xiao Zhu are also OVER!!!
Sian Sian Sian... Sibei sian
(Anyone who worked in the popular "Back to school" Sale pls pm me, tag or watever means to contact me) HAHA
Now can only pin my hopes on FATE!! LOL
Gonna go down to Orchard later on to have my hair cut...
So hopefully rain will be gone by then!!!
Now its FF (Fianl Fantasy) time!! LOL
Ciao~~~

2008-12-25T08:44:00.000-08:00

Once again, Wishing everyone a "MERRY X'MAS"

Didnt really had a good x'mas eve.. What suppose to be a BBQ session end up in a rather pathetic one.. LOL

Rain just keep pouring, how to BBQ?! lol

Went to Katong to play pool along with my uncle and couz, after that head to 99 to have a drink..

Kena conned by ah fat, say got band coming but in the end hardly any soul around.. lol.. boring~~

Went HK cafe to mmet mel and stella and to have something to eat at around 3+ before heading back home to have a sleep..

It was so tiring today!! Woke up at 1+ have lunch, went back to sleep again until 5+
Then go down to have a swim (more like strolling in the pool)

It's 12:51am now and i'm heading to my warm mattress again!! Tml gotta work!!
Gd nite everyone..

So the "Xiao Ke Ai" is a fillipino!!!
HAHA...

2008-12-23T07:01:00.001-08:00

!@&*%@$@%!!!!! damn damn damn!!!
First thing i came home, my freaking nose start to bleed!!!
At first i tot its just running nose!!! But hell no!!! ITS BLOOD!!!
OMG, why is my nose bleeding... Dying soon!! haha (touch wood)

Tml will be X'mas eve, Wishing everyone a MERRY X'MAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR

Oh my tian, kena influenced by some ah lian, keep saying "oh my tian"... haha

Watched " ปิดเทอมใหญ่ หัวใจว้าวุ่น " on youtube on sunday, an average movie but the theme song is so freaking nice =)

Focus is so de cute!!! haha

2008-12-21T09:23:00.000-08:00

Another boring weekend... Sianz...
Yesterday saw my dad came back home with so many bags, can only be he just came back from shopping!!!
He took out his watch and pass it to me..

Dad: Nice not
Me: Not bad
Me: What brand is it?
Me: National Geographic?! (i was like, aint it a channel showing animals program?)
Dad: Ya, they have their own shop at Vivo, selling clothings too
Me: How much is it?
Dad: 1k (Stunned, my eyes nearly popped out from my eye socket)
Me: Dont u feel heart pain buying such an expensive watceh?
Dad: No la, u spend what u earn
(I was like, wateva)

Now National Geographic also became a brand...
When will it be "Discovery cahnnel"'s turn? lol...

2008-12-15T10:52:00.000-08:00

Was viewing youtube and came across this funny korean guy!!!
(The next william hung?) LOL...!!
Enjoy this video
TOUCH MY BODY~~~~

2008-11-25T06:29:00.000-08:00

There comes a time when u will tell urself
"Enough of playing, it's time to settle down"
I do not know when will this day come...
Ignore me, just having a mood swing!!

2008-11-24T21:50:00.000-08:00

Stomach just aint feeling right!!
Must be the effect of the vodka i had ytd.. LOL..

Went to visit my granny recently, mum told me she's getting weak. so since i was somewhere near her area, decided to go pay her a visit. had a random chat with her usual saying "be a good boy", "earn $ take care of ur parents" etc. She's already 80+ yrs old and i told her she can go all the way to 100. She was like, "dont want dont want, faster die better." (Touch wood)
I just love teasing my granny, so cute when she smile. lol. Passed me a $10 note just before i left. She's just so humble, so generous. Just as i was about to leave, she showed me a hugging gesture, so i assume she wanted a hug. But i was wrong. lol. she pressed my head down and gave me a peck on my cheek, and i gladly return her one. LOL

I LOVE MY GRANNY!!!

2008-11-14T09:16:00.000-08:00

Saw her again... TWICE...!!! So HAPPY...!!!
Won 4-1 on pool...!!! Double happiness...!!!

Nth much to blog today!!!
Nothing but Happy...!!!
HAHAHAHAHA

2008-11-14T00:05:00.000-08:00

My heart's pumping rapidly, blood rushing up to my head, legs becoming wobbly...
"Damn, is it her again?" The back view looks just like her. As i walk closer, my heart pump even faster, Then, realise it's not her.
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I don't know how to make lots of money
I got debts that I'm trying to pay
I can't buy you nice things, like big diamond rings
But that don't mean much anyway
I can't give you the house you've been dreaming
If I could I would build it alone
I'd be out there all day, just hammering away
Make us a place of our own

I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without you

I don't know that I'd make a good soldier
I don't believe in being violent and cruel
I don't know how to fight, but I'll draw blood tonight
If somebody tries hurting you

I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without you

Now that it's out on the table (it's out on the table)
Both of us knew all along (knew all along)
I've got your loving and you've got my song

I don't know how to make lots of money
I don't know all the right things to do
I can't say where we'll go, but the one thing I know
Is how to be a good man to you
Until I die that's what I'll do

I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without
I will write you a song (I will write you a song)
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong (love is still strong)
I will write you a song
And you know from this song that I just can't go on without you

2008-11-03T09:08:00.000-08:00

Bumped into her once again!!!!!
Why dont i have the freaking courage to walk to her!!!
Still the same old wimp i was back then!!!!
Look just like the same old time, just that everything is different now...

When for a run at ard 11pm (running keeps me from wild imagination, can keep fit at the same time)
Ran back to the same old bench where she used to "study", where alvin and melvin accompanied to...
Those were the days...
Trying to finish the Vodka mel opened in my house that other day..
I've found a new philosophy,
"A Cup of Vodka a day, keeps my trouble away"
Not bad ehh....

三年以过,清醒后,才发现我一直都在原地踏步

2008-11-02T07:59:00.000-08:00

Walked pass Jo ytd nite, tgt with her were her friend and bf. Just when i last expect to see her, there she is, right infront of me, as if my day aint bad enough... Blow after blow, impact after impact, how much more can one actually take?!
For the past 3 yrs, i thought she was already a forgotten soul, guess i was wrong!!!
Why am i feeling what i'm feeling right now?! This feeling is just so weird, so undescribable. Maybe those memories i kept all along are for a reason!! The dog tag, keyring, memo!!! I dare say it's the sweetest present i had received in my past 23 yrs.
My immaturity, my neglectness in the past, Thinking back, didnt know how fortunate i was.
Maybe one should look foward, had it not for those error i've done in the past, i wouldnt have learn from it to be who i'm today.
Kinda jealous how lucky that guy is at the momment.. LOL
A forgotten soul that i'm, how nice if i can bump into u once more!!!
Just wanna know how u are doing right now!!
Once sweet memories, forever sweet~

"My xxxxx xxxx,
Wish ya a very Happy Birthday! And the same old blessing, wish you 年年有今曰, 一年比一年过得快乐,愿望成真, blah blah blah.. Getting older and older also oh.. HaHa.. Stop all my rubbish, serious now.. Hmm.. Though things might not be that smooth and well for us, it would be a test too, I hope nothing can affect our relationship! Everything and everyone is changing, including myself. So i'll try to get use to it no matter how you've changed. Lets wish that our love can get stronger and stronger. Hope that our relationship can lasst long long. longer than you think!
希望你以后的每一个生日,我都可以和你一起过..

xxxxxx
250904"

2008-10-31T23:25:00.000-07:00

Love comes Love goes
But when it's gone, pictures and memories will be the only remainders in this game of Love.
We both challenged the impossible, thinking one day we might prevail.
We were wrong!!
We came, We saw, (no we didnt conquered)
We stumble and we fall
We both know it's tough but it's really a miracle that we can hang on to it so long but eventually, we still got defeated.
Love aint as easy as i thought it was. Thinking the only catalyst in love are faith and belief, there's still so many things we neglected.
The "what if" questions seems to be corrupting everyone's mind.
"What if i didnt do this"
"What if i had do that"
I'm one of those in the past.
Maybe it's time to stop it. What done had already been done, no point telling oneself "What if i can revert time".
Can time really be reverted?!

I really envy those who can (like those fairytales ending) live happily ever after.
How can they do it?! Are their bonding really as solid as a brick?! What it takes for it to happen?!
Had i know the answer, my story might have a different ending.

Perhaps it's time to start a new chapter in my life. A chapter without u in it. Road may somehow be different and tough but i believe somehow, someday, life will revert back to how it's use to be.
It's not bad being someone's guardian angel too, at least i can be an "Angel". (I can go to heaven when i die) Hurray!!!!
A part of you will lead me through those hardships i will be facing for the years to come......

Not this life, perhaps in the next life

(Wishing all a HAPPY HALLOWEEN)

2008-10-24T08:30:00.000-07:00

Wanna get tan again... I just love eddie feng's skin colour... SO PERFECT!!!
He looks kinda cool too....
Thinking of getting indoor tanning again!!!

2008-10-23T10:12:00.000-07:00

Head Porter X Bearbrick

Any kind-hearted soul willing to buy this cutie for me??!!

LOL

2008-10-22T00:59:00.000-07:00

Love leads to laughter
Love leads to pain
With you by my side
I feel good times again

Never have I felt
These feelings before
You showed me the world
How can I ask for more

And although there's confusion
We'll find a solution
To keep my heart close to you

And I know, yes I know
If you hold me, believe me
I'll never, never ever leave

And I know
There is nothing that I would
Not do for you
Forever be true
And I know
Although times can be hard
We will see it through
I'm forever in love with you

Show me affection
In all different ways
Give you my heart
For the rest of my days

With you all my troubles
Are left far behind
Like heaven on earth
When I look in your eyes

And although there's confusion
We'll find a solution
To keep my heart close to you

And I know, yes I know
If you hold me, believe me
I'll never, never ever leave

And I know
There is nothing that I would
Not do for you
Forever be true
And I know
Although times can be hard
We will see it through
I'm forever in love with you

No need to cry
I'll be right by your side
(Right by your side)

Let's take our time
Love won't run dry
If you hold me, believe me
I'll never, never ever leave

And I know
There is nothing that I would
Not do for you
Forever be true
And I know
Although times can be hard
We will see it through
I'm forever in love

"你知道吗?

我很喜欢牵着你的手的感觉

那是什么样子?

我好希望再来一次"

2008-10-20T21:59:00.000-07:00

Enough for my love life for the time being,
now lets talk about what i've done this past few days...
PS: Mr Woody, remember you owe me a bearbrick hor!! i will keep huanting u until u pass it to me!! haha

Monday:
For the 1st time in my 3wks working in "Harris", i decided to style my hair to work.. Dont know for what reason, but i just did... LOL..
Had this north indian food for my lunch.. (wanted to try how it was) It taste so vegeterain except for the chicken kebab but it taste rather ok!!

Sunday:
Jac have arrived in Singapore!! Went out with her and Mel to catch "Max Payne".. Dont really find it that nice, just average...
Intially decided to head down to a pub my bro intro me to but too bad, IT'S CLOSED!!!
so, no drinking for the day, SAD
(Thks for the b'day present and card... My 1st of the year, though i'm expecting somebody to give it to me 1st.. Hais!!!)
Saturday:
Went down to Orchard to jalan jalan~~ a weekly routine... LOL... Didnt did much there though..
We headed down to the youth park to listen to some local band performing before heading down to "surrender"... Omg, now surrender is selling Visvim Christo!! Awsome, but no $$ to buy it, only can envy it.. LOL..
Headed straight down to Xanda's b'day chalet before heading back home... (Xanda, u are becoming fat~~!!! It's time to trim down if not u might have difficulties on next year IPPT!! LOL)

2008-10-20T07:05:00.000-07:00

Argh!!! Why is it so hard to hate someone?? Is it really that difficult?! In my opinion, "HELL YES", esp hating those u love!!!
Does that means i will never ever going to be a badman? Well, who cares, i dont wanna be one either....
Shit!! I'm missing her again...!!! ARGH!!!!!!
On so many occasion, i wanted to msg her, asking "what are u doing now", "how sales for today", "do u have a great time today", "are u still missing me?".... So many question keep flooding my mind... But my conscience told me otherwise... I'm still afraid she will turn cold shoulder on me, ignoring me!! Thats the worst feeling i can ever suffer...
Sometime i just wonder what if all the argument havent happen in the first place, will we still be happily living together or will we end up like this anyway?!
Will she ever gonna msg me telling me she miss me, asking me to call her???!!!
Probably a wishful thinking of mine...
What i'm now left with is the memory stored in my smart yet cunning brain!!!!!

2008-10-18T21:55:00.000-07:00

Avenged Sevenfold-Dear God

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love

Purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed'
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed'
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

2008-10-18T10:45:00.000-07:00

No point wallowing in self pity
Enough of tears shed
Let fate decide the outcome
Aint no loving any others expect for the one i used to know
If she's aint back
She's as good as dead
So keeping my finger cross
Hoping she will once again appear right before me

2008-10-17T21:39:00.000-07:00

Once again, my emotion got the better of me... Mr. Weakling had broken down once again...
I keep wondering why is it that other couples are so happy when i'm struggling...
Just when my love grows more for u, u started to turn into someone so unfamiliar...
If its all the hurt u got before, i've already had my retribution... As so i thought we can live happily ever after, can we?!
Tryin to be optimistic when i'm really not is just bluffing myself...!!! I hate this feeling. Why give me hope then leave me to rot and die?!

2008-10-16T06:33:00.000-07:00

Breaking News

I have finally revert back to my Mr. Happy-go-lucky,optimistic self!!!! So so happy. It feels good to be back. I've thrown all those bad stuffs to the back of my mind. I'm more optimistic about life now. No point dwelling over matters that are not relevant/unrealistic. Only make my days more miserable.

Trust is all that i need to be positive.

Dr. Derrick phylosophy of Love, Love = Lotsa Trust

So,

To everyone out there:If u guys have any problems, or need a listening ear, I'll be the 1st to rise my hand!!!Let Dr. Happy-go-lucky heal all ur wounds. No fee required.

"Always look on the brighter side of life"

"There's always ray of Hope"

"Keep tryin', Never say Die"

2008-10-15T05:55:00.000-07:00

A visit to hk + a little twist of luck, let this one boy "D" get to know a cute little girl "S". He was mesmerised by the little girl and somehow fell for her at the very first sight. Due to the guy shy personality, he dare not approach her. Like i say, with a twist of luck, a friend of "D", decided to approach her to ask direction. That's pretty much is the beginning of a long story to come. On the 2nd day, "D" decided to ask his friends to visit her once again as he just cant get over "S".
Just when "D" was busy looking heads over toes for "S", a familiar face appeared from a shop. It's "S"!! Finally "D" have found "S". Then conversations broke out, and soon they became friends.
During the short trip, "D" somehow have some regrets, that is not to be able to obtain the number of "S". Thankfully, "D"'s friend did managed to get it. Day but day passes, slowly but surely, "D" manage to climb up the rank is "S" heart. They even create nicknames for one another. They look just like any other love birds. Soon, "D" finally pluck out the courage to ask "S" to be his "Superwoman". And "S" gladfully agreed!!!!

Their journey are tough in the beginnning when friends and family started to causes doubt on how long they will last. Afterall a long distance relationship isnt that easy to manage!!!
But both "D" and "S" were determined to prove the doubters wrong, which they did, as this post is being written.

Occasionally they quarrelled (which couple doesnt?!) but sometime quarrell does make a relationship bond stronger. "D" is stupid in the past to always stand his ground on arguement when he shld just give in to "S". During this long one year plus, "D" and "S" have gone through alot. Be it good or bad, happy times or bad times, just to much one can imagine and they are still as strong as one. "D" made a vow that he will be taking care of "S" for the rest of her life. They have fought through rain and shine together to get to where they are today and "D" is not willing to put it all to waste. Whatever "D" have done wrong in the past, he is now apologising to "S" and will learn from all the mistake he have done. "D" hope "S" will always be in his journal of life, wanting her to walk down this long yet no longer lonely path with him.
Walking down the isle, bearing kids, growing old...!!!
"D" loves "S"

翻着我们的照片

想念若隐若现

去年的冬天

我们笑得很甜

看着你哭泣的脸

对着我说再见

来不及听见

你已走得很远

也许你已经放弃我

也许已经很难回头

我知道是自己错过

请再给我一个理由说你不爱我

就算是我不懂

能不能原谅我

请不要把分手当作你的请求

我知道坚持要走

是你受伤的借口

请你回头

我会陪你一直走到最后

就算没有结果

我也能够承受

我知道你的痛是我给的承诺

你说给过我纵容

沉默是因为包容

如果要走请你记得我

Have been rather emotional this few days, for some reason, i feel so lonely, so empty. I know i only have myself to blame for all that made u change. If i can turn back time, i will definately give my 101% of my heart to you, not to argue with u just so u can be the same old superwoman i used to know. She's my everything, my all!!! She's the one who rock my world, the one i've learned alot of things in life from. The one who have her own interest firmly for the good of me.

I MISS YOU, I REALLY DO

2008-10-11T22:00:00.000-07:00

Boredom!!!!
Seriously speaking, i just cant find any reason to spur me on in life at the momment... Feeling like i'm just going through the motion... So listless, so jaded at the momment... Thks godness i had sufficient rest this couple of days.... What to do? What to do?
Xanda called me ytd inviting me to his b'day party at downtown... (acohol provided?! lol)
I'm so afraid what i anticipated was true, like last time, lightning being struck twice... I just dont want to know the answer.. What if i'm spot on this time, how am i going to face it... The best way now is KEEP ON WORKING and stop thinking about all this...

I'll be joking if i say i ait have anymore feeling for you... The sadness and pain aren't there for nothing, it comes together with the amout of love i had plunged in...

What i really want is just a simple yet enjoyable, meaning life... How nice if one can never grow old (when i say old, i mean turning into adults, not as in "OLD")
When we were young, everything is being taken care of... studies, accomendation etc.
Neither money nor relationship problems to worry... In general, NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT!!!
Therefore: It's gd to be young!!!

ADD SOME SPICE INTO MY LIFE, MY DEAR FRIENDS!!!

2008-10-09T08:56:00.000-07:00

Check this shit out, it's so fucking accurate.... Received it from a friend of mine (some sort of chain email, claiming 9 yrs of bad luck if dont forward it... Ya rite, i'm scared!!!!)

But the zodiac reading was absolutely spot on!!!

LIBRA - The Lame One

Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However, not the kind of person you want to mess with...

2008-10-09T06:45:00.000-07:00

Bruised and battered.... Nth compares to the emotion-turn-physical pain i'm feeling right now....
Being drown with sorrow... Fill me with alcohol... Numb me emotionally and physically...
Just in time for "eh hem".. You to accompany me to drink... (You know who you are)
Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think Dont wanna think

2008-10-02T06:28:00.000-07:00

She comes and she goes....
In the matter of like 2 wks.....
But during this 2 wks, had a wonderful time with my little baby!!!!
Although majority of the time was spend in shopping mall, i still manage to bring her to "Sentosa" (But i guess we pick the wrong date to go there, it was so fucking HOT!!!)
(Bowling and pool was fun ya?! LOL)
When bowling in the middle of the night on numerous occasion along with my bro and sis...
Thanks for being here to celebrate my b'day with me... Hope for the many years to come, i will be celebrating yours and mine b'day together... Though this trip for u is rather short, it is a very meaningful one.. Hopefully you can come much longer the next time round....
2 wks seems to fly in a blink of an eye but i'm sure you will be back.... Our next meeting, December..!!! X'mas DAY!!!
HAPPY 1 YR 1 MTH!!!!!!!

2008-09-11T04:43:00.000-07:00

I'm so excited by the prospect of Manchester City Football Club... Always under the shadow of local rival Manchester United, are they finally going to outshine them...?!
That wouldnt come as a suprise after their acquisition in the likes of Robinho, Jo, Shaun-Wright Phillips etc... Who's the next in line? Lukas Podolski?! Cant wait for the January market to open again...!!!
Who's next on their testing board?! It's Chelsea?! I bet it's gonna be a great match-up...
Gotta stock up my tibits to enjoy it....

Thumbs Up for the new "Galaticos" of England..

Manchester City

2008-09-06T01:24:00.000-07:00

4 September 2008 (040908)

Happy 1 yr Anniversary!!!

2008-08-31T04:14:00.001-07:00

Once again i'm in HK,
Once again i'm stuck in my fav spot "Pacific Coffee",
Once again i'm getting bored,
Once again i'm on my blog....
This is the longest i've been stuck in pacific coffee... For 4 freaking hrs, with a cup of "hot" chocolate (you pretty much guessed the chocolate is no longer HOT)
Something worthy for me to be proud of.. lol
Tml definately gonna be much much better... Reason?
Because Laopo is no longer working as from tml, or shld i say wrking as a full time till the end of the mth...
So,
No more pacific coffee,
No more boredom,
Cool~~~
Victoria Park is packed with philipino's, indonesian's maids and indians....
Kinda expexted it,
It's Sunday,
Their off day....
Better stop here... Gotta go see ppl play soccer lo.....
Take care~~

2008-08-15T07:35:00.000-07:00

Feels like i have just been infected with the Lazy bug disease... Rather lazy to blog this couple of weeks.... So, maybe i shld let the pictures do the talking instead...!!

2008-08-10T08:13:00.000-07:00

I want to lay my hand on this cool pair of shoe!!!!

Hurray, finally gonna get to see superwoman again... Cant wait!!!!!!!

2008-08-01T08:42:00.000-07:00

Here are some of the pic taken when i'm hk last mth... (many pic were erased due to my portable hard disk crashing!!! &*$%T#$%#)

2008-08-01T08:25:00.000-07:00

Once again, i've left the blogging world for a period of time... I'm glad to say, "I'm Finally Back"

"Back with a vengance"

Since i've so long havent blog, i can only summarize all in a single post...!!

Recently Brazilian U23 olympic squad came to town.... To singapore... Went to see them and manage to took some pic with some of them... They are really nice.... It's a pity that i couldnt have a pic with thecenter of attraction.. "Ronaldinho"

2008-07-10T07:17:00.000-07:00

Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck...!!!
Bad Bad Bad...!!!
Fucking portable hard drive crush...!!!
All my fucking HK pics inside...!!!
Well, almost all.... Haiz...

Does all good things come to an end?!
Why cant good things last?!

Gimme $$$$$, i fucking need it Desperately!!!!!

2008-06-21T14:14:00.001-07:00

Soooooooo Freaking tired...!! It's 5 am in the morning and i'm in the airport, on my way to HK..... Just watched how the Russian thrashed the might Holland... Haha.... Had this gutsy feeling russian will win today and they really did... Spot on...!! Just feel that another dark horse will win the Euro Cup again... Turkey or Russia?? We shall see....
Spain VS Italy
Go go go, my idol Villa!!!!!!!

2008-06-12T02:37:00.000-07:00

Hail KING VILLA

2008-06-06T02:59:00.000-07:00

Finally managed to reformat my laptop... But i think it became much slower... lol... Perhaps something somewhere cropped up...
This laptop reformatting is so different from other com la... So troublesome...
But thanks to my wisdom, i managed to get it done... Hehehe...

2008-05-28T08:23:00.000-07:00

Pls forgive my temper this few days..... I'm sorry, i just cant control it.... Just thinking of it makes me blow my top.... Damn that mother fucker...!!!
Do i look like a fool to you?!

Is this world all about
Backstabbing ?!
Hatred ?!
Lies ?!

Only you can make me not think of those controversy circulating around me.. (You know who you are)
Only chatting with you make me feel at ease...
That's the power of LOVE

2008-05-27T11:17:00.000-07:00

"睡神" where are you?!!
Haiz....
Had a bad bad day..... No listening ear...!!!!

2008-05-26T08:24:00.000-07:00

I know i did say prawn fishing was boring... But dont know why, went to catch prawn again today... But the place kinda sux... Prawn are so freaking small.... Only managed to catch 5 prawns with a total of 3 person... Pathetic rite?! LOL

Bumped into Steph few days back and she look kinda diff la... No longer the "Ah Lian" look... No more "gold patch" LOL...!!!

Just some random pics....

2008-05-21T23:43:00.000-07:00

Can u spot the difference?
Cant right?! Let me reveal the answer

Manchester United:

Champion of Barclay's English Premier League

Champion of UEFA Champion's League

They did the DOUBLES

Was so happy la.... Watched the Match at CHIMJES

Freaking hell, my heart nearly came out from my mouth la...

Thank godness John Terry miss his penatly...!! so too to Anelka...!!!

Enough of "Chelsea is better than Man United"

If u guys didnt realise, Chelsea did does a double too...

Double blow in the hands of Man United!!! Whahahaha...

The crowd at CHIMJES last night was fantastic... Also did saw a fight broke loose just before the match....

GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED,

AND THE REDS GO MARCHING IN

2008-05-20T20:33:00.000-07:00

Freaking hell, 3 post in a day... Damn tiring la...!! LOL...

Enough...!! Get on with my blog....

Ytd was a rather fun day, havent done so much walking since my national service...!!

Firstly met jickson in Bugis to have our lunch, in the meantime, waiting for mel to come...

Had this omelette rice for lunch, not that nice though, still prefer the one in Taka.. Yummy!!!

Once mel arrived, we thought of catching a movie.. But out of the 3 movies, i've watched 2 of them and the other, yet another love story, so decided to pass on that...

Then went to haji lane to get my shorts, at last, a black shorts that i like... Have been searching for like a month or so...

That sales girl is so funny de la... The pants (after discount) cost $44.10.. Then i gave her a $50 note... By right, she shld return me $5.90... She asked me if i got 90 cent.. I was like, if i give u 90 cent, u need to pay me $6.80 back... Does it make a diff? shldnt i just give u 10 cent and u return me a whole sum of $6... Doesnt that sounds more reasonable? LOL...

Then we continue to walk and walk and walk, pass by so many shopping mall which i will never ever thought of going in...

From Bugis, walk all the way to Orchard... Nice!!

Then dont know who's stupid idea. say wanna go to the Comme Des Garcon Store!! LOL...

Following the instruction from the frontal forum, we walk all the way up the hill, then all the way down the hill... Cant find that stupid shop la... CDG? more like C My Ass..!!!!

Mel and us separated for a while, coz he need to go have dinner with his COUSIN (i get it right this time)

Then we headed to this prawn fishing farm... It was so off road la... need to walk a super long distance to reach... Paid $30 to catch 2 miserable prawn, but not bad la, first time, at least better than someone, who caught only one prawn, somemore is super small de la... LOL.. OOPS!!

This prawn fishing thing aint the thing for me, yes, it is fun but i dont have the patient to sit still to wait for the prawn to get on the hook... Nearly doze off while waiting la... Boring!!

Then decided to go for a drink at CHIMJES..!! So many pub are closed liao la... So decided to try our luck in this Thai pub, end up its not that bad la... The singers there are so friendly la, not forgetting pretty and handsome!! lol.. Too bad i dont have a crush on Thai girls...

2 person fininsh up two jug of Vodka-Green Tea and Vodka-Sprite respectively.... Also drank this super cool shit call "Water Fountain".... You guys should give it a try... They put this bottle filled with Martell, i suppose, under this long triangular bottle, then they warm up another glass filled with alcohol, i think also martell, set it on fire and pour it down the triangular bottle.. U can see the whole bottle is on fire and we gotta drink up those Martell with is on fire... Cool eh~~

The sensation was awesome, u can feel ur throat is on FIRE!!!! cool~~

End of the day, and till today, i still hold the record of never get drunk before!! Woohoo!!!

2008-05-20T19:43:00.000-07:00

Looks like someone miss my blog... LOL... no la.. I'm not MIA, just that this few days kinda lazy plus seldom at home...

Went to my new house on monday, damn, the pool is so fucking big... You will probably die of exhaustion swimming from one end to another... LOL..

Pretty happy with my room... Not that big, but satisfying... But i got the best view from my room.. haha.. Can get to see the entire swimming pool and a little of the sea..!! Woohoo...

Who wanna be the female owner of the room, pls rise ur hand... LOL... Just joking, it's currently under reservastion... My crazy sis took around 100 over pic there.. Mad... Took some for myself too, then ask my sis to do some photoshop... Cant deny, she have a talent in photo-editing...

2008-05-20T18:54:00.000-07:00

This is how far we have been through, how far we have grown...

There's a saying "Pictures tells a thousand words"

So i shall stop crapping and let the pics do the talking...

2008-05-18T07:25:00.000-07:00

Went to east coast park today...
Real emotional....
Walking down the long stretch of sand, my tears once again stream down my face...
Afterall, the term "Beach" does leave me with some emotional memories....
East Coast Park is the place where i celebrate my celebrate my 21th b'day with my ex...
We once walk down the beach together....
Thats not the main reason i broke down into tears, afterall i've got over her...
Superwoman and i once promise to walk down the beach together, but we didnt get the chance to...
Lying down on the sand, i gaze upon the stars, wondering how nice if i can spend this short but wonderful momment with you....

2008-05-17T21:45:00.000-07:00

I swear, this is by far the hardest decision i have to make in my 22 yrs.... But sometimes, when its time to let go, there's no point holding back... Not that i havent try, i tried every possible ways for this relationship to revive... Seems like nth work out fine...
We built a great trust in this 8 mths, but now, i can hardly differentiate what u say are true, what are lies... We used to say everythn, i mean everythn...
You are a wonderful girl, it's a waste i got to let u go in such a way... "Well", its my loss, definately someone's gain... I know i shldnt say this, but if you are still with him, cherish him, he's even willing to sacrifice his smoking becoz of you, though i dont know him, quitting smoking aint an easy thing, if he's willing to quit, that means he does love u alot... Hopefully he will cherish you too, if not i will fucking screw him upside down... = )
You have been a wonderful companion in the past 8 mths, we have written a wonderful journey together and now it's time to put a full-stop and get on to the next chapter...
Remember one thing for sure... Once my "Superwoman", forever my "Superwoman"

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后并没有更自由
酸酸的空气嗅出我们的距离
一幕椎心的结局像呼吸般无法停息
抽屉泛黄的日记
榨干了回忆那笑容是夏季
你我的过去被顺时针的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情粗心的眼泪是多余
我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去

2008-05-17T07:42:00.000-07:00

You probably would have guess it by now... Yet another movie...
This time, its "Drillbert Taylor"(hope i didnt spell it wrongly) by Owen Wilson, yet another joker...
But today not really in the mood to laugh...

Remember in my previous xanga, i wrote an entry when i was about to go to taiwan, its a rather similar situation now...

Monday, December 17, 2007

Where is the Sherry i use to know ? The Sherry that will be enthuistic whenever i call her ? The Sherry that like to call me Laogong ? The Sherry that like to laugh at my cold jokes ? The Sherry that will always call me go HK look for her ? The Sherry that like to tell me "Laogong, 我爱你" ? The Sherry that always tell me "I'm going home to accompany you, see how noble am i...!" The Sherry that exchanged rings with me, saying we will stay together forever, till death do i part ? I really miss that Sherry.. Dear Lord, pls return that Sherry back to me, i'm willing to sacrifice anything and everything possible for u to bring her back im my arms again...
Honestly speaking, i really hate that "boyfriend" of your's... i decided to withdraw and wait for you because i thought you will be happy with him and that he will provide u with happiness... But thats not the case...
** Something giving up doesn't mean you are weak, it means you are strong enough to let go. Every steps you take takes you further from where you left off **
I really dont have the mood to go Taiwan at this momment of time, esp with so many things happening recently... If i can choose, i really wanna go HK instead just to tell u I LOVE YOU...!!! Never had my love for u change a single bit.. If there is, it is only getting more...!!!
I'm really hoping u will once again tell me "Laogong,我爱你"
I've told u i'll be waiting for u to ask me call u tonight.. Althought i know that possibilty of u asking me to call is real slim, i will not give up, i will wait, even if i have to wait till tomorrow morning...
Laopo, I swear to you i will get for u whatever u ask for, but really not at this momment of time.. I hope u can understand, at this momment of time, i'm trying real hard just to earn my way to HK to see you and to pay of my debts.. I promise u i will get it for u once i have the money k ?!
Actually i plan to have a slightly more serious talk with you today... But just in case i didnt get the chance, i will post it here instead, just so u know...
Remember the time i went HK with Kevin ?! I really didnt expect you to grab my arms so tight when i met you on the first day.. To be honest, i'm shock, but really happy... knowing my Sherry does really love me that much !
Remember the first time i cried ? I still remember it is becoz of some issue where u get angry and didnt want to answer my call, i called so many so many time... In the end, u eventually picked up the phone but just only started to say a few words, i started crying.. Kinda embarassing though...
Remember when i got a fever in HK, u went back with me, got me a towel and sponged it on my forehead ? You even told me becoz i'm having a fever, u rather stay over and look after me ?
Remember that day when u angrily walked away, saying u wanna go home ? I turn my back on Kevin to look for you, accompany u to 7 11 to buy u alcohol but it was me to drank the whole bottle of it instead...
Remember that time in Time Square where we exchanged rings ? At that very momment, you make me realised that you will be the one to spend the rest of my time with...
There's still many more things we did together which i never stated (if i have to, the whole xanga will not be enough)
But our journey doesnt end here... Many things are yet to be written in our journal book... We still haven gone overseas together... There's still many many more years to come dear.. I really hope u will let me whole your hands and walk down the rest of my life without any regrets... I really want you to be my beautiful bride, walking down the aisle with me, once again exchange rings, saying vows and saying "I DO"
If i can turn back time, i will still be choose to be with you... You made me who i am today...!! You really made me change alot of my views and concept of many many things in life... Everythings happens for a reason, be it good or bad... Bad things are just a test in our daily life which we gotta overcome...
I've said this many many times to you before and i will still say it in the future
I LOVE YOU SHERRY
Pretty much expected it... Waited for the whole day in vain... But it's alright.. Now i hope u can wait, pls wait for me to come back from Taiwan, wait for me to go HK again..!!
You are pretty much like a glue, i sticked to you before and i cant pull myself out if this sticky situation...
MSG me if u miss me...LOL. a wishful thought of my.. too bad i dont have your mobile number, if not i will msg u, or even call u in Taiwan..!! what a pity...!!
想回到过去试著抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界,
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去试著让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧这样挽留不知还来不来得及想回到过去

2008-05-16T08:21:00.000-07:00

Watched yet another movie today...!!!! (Think can consider taking a movie VIP pass liao.. LOL)
This time its "Chocolate"... Its a thai action pack movie...
Imagine having the main character as ur gf... No man in the world would dare bully me... If they do, she will fucking kick his head off... Its so scary how a girl can fight like her... You gotta see it to believe it....
Went for tanning again today... Pray hard hard, skin will not peel... If not go HK die...!!! Extra lotion to apply on my face!!!
On the way back, bumped onto Kok Wei.. He's on his way to PS, to watch "Chocolate"... LOL...
Strange that i didnt think much today...!!!!

Emphasise one more time...!!!

2 more days

You look so beautiful today

When you’re sitting there it’s hard for me to look away

So I try to find the words that I could say

I know distance doesn’t matter but you feel so far away

And I can’t lie, every time I leave my heart turns gray

And I wanna come back home to see your face

And I…Cuz I just can’t take it

Another day without you with me

Is like a blade that cuts right through me

And I can wait…I can wait forever

When you call my heart stops beating

When you’re gone, it won’t stop bleeding

I can wait…I can wait forever

Simple Plan-I can wait forever

2008-05-15T21:22:00.000-07:00

TRUST
-can anyone maintain a relationship w/o trust... I highly doubt it...
If i tell u i still trust you, that kinda obvious huh?!

There's a reason why i still keep the rings around my neck...
It strange how girls and guys think so unlikely...
I've confront alot of my frens regarding my relationship stuffs...
All my guy frens tell me the same things... "She just toying with your feeling"
All my girl frens are like.. "Come on, 8 mths, aint it pity if all this 8 mths go to waste?! Keep going"
At this momment of time, i'm still with the girls side...
When u start hearing negative things, you will more or less somehow feel negative...
Afterall, its only 2 more days to endure... i need an answer to our future...

2 more fucking days to endure

2008-05-14T23:06:00.000-07:00

Thanks Jac for the intro to Gary Cao "Bei Pan"...
I've heard the song umpteen times... watched the mtv so many times.....
(This song reminds me of her again... hais... u see la.. Somemore "Bei Pan", very negative leh)
Then we talk about this "two-timing" issue... No one like this feeling la... esp me, i encountered it before, and i told myself, i swear i will not allow myself to get into this mess again... I fucking hate this feeling to the core....
Paisei leh, keep talking about my "on-off" relationship with you... i know its kinda irritating at times, but pls, endure la... lol...
Maybe its becoz u are the same gender with her, probably u will know what she's thinking (i supposed)
How nice if she's the one i'm talking to about those issues... (i'm not saying u are a bad listener, but i just want her to know how i feel, i really want this to work out fine)
Who dont want a relationship to work out fine?!
I know long-distance relationship is hard to mantain, u are not the 1st to tell me that...
But there's some exception you know... I'm not giving up becoz people keep telling me negative things, i only give up when i feel its beyond repair.... I still have some trust in her, i dont know why i somehow feel she really meant what she said...
But this shit with "that guy" issue have gotta be solved... I'm not those who can stand being hang in the balance, now its me who needs assurance from her...
I dont know how all this shits are gonna turn out, i'm prepared for the worst...
3 days... 3 days is all i give myself...!!! I need an answer... I dont want to freeze in time...
Hope u can understand...!!!
I know you have your dilema, but I'm suffering too...
I will bind my hand tightly, not to..... (you know what i'm saying... LOL)
All love is not lost yet, keep faith...!!! God Bless Me~~~

2008-05-14T19:18:00.000-07:00

Actually wanted to speak my heart out ytd but since u are already tired, i dont wanna wake you up.... I guess i wouldnt have the courage to say it out to you again, so i think its better for me to write it out for u to read in here...
At the 1st place, when u told me you are going to "settle" the issue with him, i pretty much guessed that you will not tell it to him ytd...
Then when u confirmed it, i was wondering "why didnt you let him know?!"
2 possibilties came across my mind:
1- You totally dont wanna tell him that coz you still love him
2- You wanted to tell him but you dont know how to put across to him
No one will know what's the real reason, you yourself know it best....
I really hope what we talked about ytd morning are all true, all the things you said are from the bottom of your heart...
I'm sorry, i might sound like i'm asking you to make up a decision quick...
You have known me best, you shld know i'm the kinda guy who dont like to be hang on the balance... I dont like to think this, think that....
The sherry i know aint that wishy washy, she's very straightfoward... She tell u things straight in the face.... Thats the sherry i know for you...!!
Remember i told you ytd, your destiny, your fate lies on your own hands... Do what u really wanna do and dont regret it....
Love is such a funny thing, you cannot allow others to have ur lover at the same time, you want her solely be yours, to give her 100% into this relationship!!! It might seem selfish, but everyone is selfish in the game of LOVE!!
If you love me, pls settle the issue with him asap...
If you love him, pls tell me straight....
I really dont want to get hurt anymore.... You asked me to trust u, not to let go of you... Do u really think that way?!

2008-05-14T08:17:00.001-07:00

Imagine today is the end of the world, what will you do?!
I can visualize, holding your hand, walking down the red carpet, saying our vows repestively, exchanging of rings and seal it off with a kiss....
If we live everyday like it will be your last, we wouldnt care what will happen in the future...
You ask me to ensure you a future, i gave u an assurance for our future and you agreed on it... I hope we will put all this behind, never to have any arguement over this issue again....
Dont know why this few days keep seeing GAYS...!!!
Yesterday in the cinema saw one couple, today walking on the street saw another one... OMG, so fucking gross!!!!!

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使我哪里还需要别的愿望

2008-05-13T08:32:00.000-07:00

Went cineleisure to watch "Over Her Dead Body" along with woody and melvin today... (Yet another love story.. LOL) Finally got to see Woody in over a month at least... Still the same old him... LOL... Intially thought this show will be a "just another love story", afterall yahoo movie rated it 2 out of 5 stars... But to my amaze, it was a rather good movie, definately not a "2 out of 5" movie...

Devastated when his fiancee Kate (Eva Longoria Parker) is killed on their wedding day, Henry (Paul Rudd) reluctantly agrees to consult a psychic named Ashley (Lake Bell) at the urging of his sister Chloe (Lindsay Sloane). Despite his skepticism over her psychic abilities, Henry finds himself falling hard for Ashley, and vice versa. But there's a big problem. Ashley is being haunted by Kate's ghost, who considers it her heavenly duty to break up Henry and Ashley's budding romance, but what she didnt realise was that her real reason for coming down to earth was to make Henry happy, which is by matching Henry and Ashley....

Actually i find it really brave for Kate to allow her husband to get over her and to allow another woman to be in her husband life... This is the toughest hing to do, to be honest... One got to have a BIG heart to do it...

Guess things arent going my way today (as usual)... 1st saw a woman who looks like her, then when we were having supper, heard the song Da ge by janice which she sang before...

Then questions keep popping out of my mind... "How much of me is left in you?" "Where do i stand in ur heart now?"... Those questions just popped out of nowhere...!!!

Recalling the time when i had this english project to do, despite being tired after her all day in work, she still accompany to complete my assignment, keep pestering me to use those bombastic words she recite!!

Those were the days~~~~ Sweet sweet memories!!!

2008-05-12T20:25:00.000-07:00

You once flood my world with many wonderful memories, now they are all turning into a nightmare... Forgetting is impossible, ignoring is hard... What's the best way to overcome all this fears?!
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开,爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀...
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开,爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害...

想简简单单爱

You turned my world upside down, now my frenz are trying to turn it back to where it belongs...
THANK YOU GUYS!!!

2008-05-12T07:56:00.000-07:00

Once again, the lonely soul have broken down in tears.... When can i get over this crappy feeling...!!! Once again, melvin became my victim... Sorry la, gotta drag you out with me...
When to have our "dinner" before going to fresh imp to find Jickson to have a chit chat... Without knowing, think we chatted for an hour or so....
Then a funny thing happen... The shop start playing "when u're gone"... I was like "omg, why this song at this time"... Then jickson ask the mto change songs... I think he got the wrong idea, i only dont wanna hear that song, he thought i dont want to hear those emo kinda songs.. So they keep switching songs, trying to find some happy songs....
BTW that emily girl is cute... LOL... Too bad i have a short-term memory, cant remember how she look like already... LOL
Thanks guys, i know you guys want me to stop thinking about it... It's not that i want to, it just come without notice... If possible i also dont wanna think about it... Thank godness i have so many wonderful frenz around me, to show concern for me... You guys are the best!!!
This time you dealt me a great blow, the impact is so huge that i was unable to stand up.... It hurts so much.....
Think i'm gonna get my eyebrown pierced either on wednesday or thursday... Someone told me it is gonna hurt, like that better.... Physical pain can overshadow my mental pain...!!!

2008-05-11T22:10:00.000-07:00

You said u find a new one to help yourself, but who to help me? Have u ever spare a thought for me?! You know how shitty my life is at the momment?
You make me believe that we can be together forever, but now you are saying we are not destined to be together?!
Why do u tell me that earlier, so that i wont be where i'm now...
You claimed that i dont love you, go ask around how i manage to pass my last week...
I feel like a walking zombie, walking aimlessly with no motive in life... Thats me for you....
If you dont have high hopes for our relationship, dont make me dig so deep in...
"You miss me"?! ya rite... you probably enjoying your whole of last week with ur "bf"... Since when have i ever come across your mind?!
You miss me, and u found a new bf in such a short time, to forget me?!.... Dont you find it contradicting?!
I can only blame myself for my naive and my foolishness... Thinking that if i persevere, this relationship will work out just fine... but i was wrong... this game of love is such a complicating game... If one side gave up, it's GAME OVER...!!!
DO remember one thing... IT's you who gave up on me, all this while i was hanging on, u choose to let go...

2008-05-10T22:27:00.000-07:00

So freaking exciting...!!!
The last day of EPL...!!! Keeping my finger croxx... Hope man u can retain the epl title...!!! Gotta stay at home, ass glued to my sit... LOL....
I definately wont be the only one glued to my sit... I know melvin will, Woody? maybe, Vesta? i suppose so... and many many soccer fanatic...!!!
Thrash that mother fucking WIGAN....!!!!!

Knew this HK girl from Xanga last nite (still havent know her name) LOL... She's so fun to chat with.. Nice meeting ya...!!! =)

2008-05-10T20:03:00.000-07:00

HAPPY's MOTHERS DAY
Thanks mon, for everythn u did for me in the past....
You are the best mon EVER!!!!

For some fucking reason, walking down orchard road, out of nowhere, i start to think of her again!! Damn, this is hard!!!!
To think i can get over it so easily, i'm just bluffing myself...
What have i done to deserve this from you?
You jolly well know i aint at fault this time round...
To put everythn into this relationship, what i got back was "pain", battered and bruise...
I was right all along, you have really changed... You said you have "changed back", i was stupid enough to believe that....
You are no longer the sweet, lovely girl i used to know... Your attitude have change dramatically... So much that i can hardly communicate with you... I admit i'm a fool, thinking that you will change back to your previous self... DAMN!!! I"M SUCH A FOOL!!!
Already endured the "toughest week" ever in my life....
How about the next week and so..?! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-09T21:54:00.000-07:00

Watched "What happens in VEGAS" with mel on his b'day ytd... Highly recommended if you guys are interested in comedy/love story... As usual, Ashton Kutcher in his hilarous self... (He's one hell of a joker, just love his shows)

Just love the plot of the movie, how Cameron and Ashton turning from hating each other to loving each other...!!!

It's so strange for a heart-broken soul to watch a love story..LOL...

This is the hardest i've fell in my 22 yrs... The most pain i've felt...

But i know i'm stronger than this, i'm so over it..

The game of love aint the kinda game i would like to play in the near future... Getting slapped in the face twice is more than enough at the momment...

Oh ya, a song to recommend....

"I'm yours" by Jason Marx.... it's a rather fun song...

Might be your medicine when you are down...!!! My song of the momment!!

The fucking tanning shit is showing it's effect... I'm so damn bloody red, my body is BURNING HOT!!! hopefuly the skin dont peel... I'm gonna be dark again... Woohoo...

2008-05-09T08:57:00.000-07:00

I gotta admit the previous post i wrote is written out of fustration... and so, i'm deleting it away....
Once again (3rd time today), thks jac for the consolation.... at least u are here to accompany me in the morning where all the others are either working or schooling....
You are right, all those memories cant be forgotten, but i also dont wanna think about them at the momment... It's too painful to think....
But i do have my reason to be fustrated, afterall, it's just a matter of days before she got a new one.... It makes me wonder, "does that mean her love for me aint that strong afterall"? If not, why so fast?!
Really need to thanks Melvin and Woody for physically and mentally accompanying me respectively...
Both of u guys shld be honoured to hear me cry for the 1st time in front of ppl, just like what jac said... LOL
(It's damn embarrassing tho)

BTW HAPPY 23TH BIRTHDAY MELVIN...
Finally went to get my tanning since 4-5 mths ago... didnt realise i still have 3 more session before today...
Now my freaking body is red and itchy.... gotta apply lotsa LOTIONS!!!!

"Wounds can heal, But it will leave a permanent scar for you to remember for the rest of ur life"

2008-05-08T00:25:00.000-07:00

Why does she sound so sad in the phone just now? Is it her supervisor again? (just making a wild guess) Hope she's alright...!!!

Speaking about her supervisor, all this scolding ahd shit have got to stop... Stand up for yourself..!! Dont give people the chance to scold you for things u think is right... Shoot 'em back... Screw this bitch...!!!

You are one tough chick... If you think u're right, fuck them back!!!

We are living in a reality world,

it's survivor of the fittest...!!!

People will step on you if they think you are weaker than them...

2008-05-07T20:58:00.000-07:00

Realising i'm living in a dream, i never wanna wake up... Hoping the dream can last forever...
It's not the case....

I've finally woke up from that beautiful dream, back into this reality world...
Lonely and cold...

Mel: "Who do u prefer? J or S?"
Me: "Obviously S la...!"
Sometimes when u go through hard times with the other party, the bond tends to grow stronger..

Chatted with Woody ytd night, talking about my problem and recent stuffs... It have been ages since i last chatted with him for that long... (ever since we returned from HK la)

Dont know why he's like some sort of a healer/medicine... Well, for me at least... Everytime gt problem find him can liao, though he aint of any help, lol, but definately a good listening ear, unlike "er hem"..... LOL

Well, i'm no longer expecting a miracle will happen... No more repeat of the "Taiwan incident"...

Speaking of Taiwan, planning to go there in June (provided i can save enough after this HK trip)
with mel and woody... It have been like mths since i last visited Taiwan... This time definately gotta be more fun than last time... No more sight see-ing, mountain climbing etc.
This time is all about SHOPPING!!!
If money allows, had a plan with lionel, vincent and co. to visit Taiwan again in Oct... Damn cool la...

GOTTA SAVE SAVE SAVE!!! $$$$$$$$$$$

Viewed Vanko's xanga ytd and discovered an interesting thing about xanga...
They have this "Xanga Anti-Stalker Module" shit... It's so damn cool la....
It list out every single shit about who viewed you, the referrer, the time and date he/she viewed you... Nice.... Too bad i'm not using Xanga...
Does blogger have this kinda shit too? lol...

A walk to remember

2008-05-06T21:19:00.000-07:00

Damn..!! dunno is it too much of alcohol, making my throat so damn fucking pain, and my teeth have been bothering me for weeks... Is it tooth decay?! hopefully not...

Saving up to go HK at the end of the month
Probably can save up by then...

Simple thing such as "How have you been" i can no longer ask...!!!
Useless Me...!!
Haiz...

Looking at the neoprint she gave me does makes me feel better (slightly)
She looks so young in it...!! LOL

2008-05-05T23:04:00.000-07:00

Now currently at melvin's house while melvin is sleeping like a log...!!! (-_-)Zzzzz

Day passes like years, month passes like century!!
It's only been 2 days since i last chatted with her but it's seems like ages...
I wabt to ....... but.........
The feeling is so fucking terrible..!!
Can someone help me out here?!

"Throw me into the pit,
left me to rot and die"

2008-05-04T20:02:00.000-07:00

It's just a painful ordeal to wake up everyday to realise she's no longer by my side... The momment i open my eyes, she's the first thing that come across my mind... Foolishly checking my hp to see if there is any msg unread... I have nth left... All i'm left with is some pictures, memories and the neoprint i took from you the other time...
If waking up is so painful, i rather sleep through my whole live.. No pain, no worries...
Each passing day make me realise how much i missed her... The missing grows even stronger as every second ticks by....
What should i do?!

You have always been my listening ear, now that u are gone, "blog" is the only listening ear i have left...

Wha can i do to turn back time and lead the live we use to be in ?!